Reflections of a fourteen year post-op

(Taken This Year)

Hi.  I'm Melanie Anne.

I'm 53 years old, a professional teacher of fiction writing, parent of two, still married to my spouse of thirty years but living with another woman, my soul mate, for the last eight years.

I'm also a fourteen year post-op from sex reassignment surgery.

Welcome to my life....

Along the Road to Knowhere

Journey's End is the state of mind wherein you realize that nothing about you has changed at all, other than your perspective.  And yet, from this new point of view, your world and your self appear as unfamiliar territory.

It is like taking a side step and, gaining an angle on the scenery, discovering there is another side to it all that is quite different from the face of reality in which you had come to know every line and wrinkle.

This additional information does not invalidate your original understandings, but adds to them.  Every event in your life is still as it was, but now there is extra meaning.  The gears that have propelled your quest are suddenly seen as wheels within wheels, and every object that seemed so palpable becomes three dimensional as it extends from being a flat prop to gain the attribute of depth.

At Journey's End you see that everything is as it should be and all components are in their proper places.  But you also realize that there is as much to learn about this other side of life as you have previously learned of life in all your years since birth.

And so, a new kind of endeavor emerges.  It is not yet another expedition into uncharted lands, but a revisiting of every path you have taken previously.  Each key event, insight, or trauma that you had earlier experienced, considered, and resolved is now known to be only partially grasped.   You have not yet become one with the Tao of your own existence and cannot fully comprehend your own nature without re-examining it in this new light.

Journey's End is not a destination at which you arrive, it is process of looking back at the journey through the eyes of wisdom to seek enlightenment.  First there is a mountain, than there is no mountain, then there is.  You can't step into the same river twice.  To become enlightened is not to come full circle, but full spiral.

This, then, is a story of my reflections on a journey already taken, and the insights I may discover along the road to "knowhere".


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